When you can’t even sleep because you fear that your Husband will strangle you in your sleep or smother you with a pillow whilst you sleep.
I woke up to find Him standing next to my side of the bed with a pillow on his hands….He stood just over my head . Shirley told me….i couldn’t believe it.
He is a caring loving…..perfect gentleman. The one who is always going on and on about His wife. He can’t go anywhere without her.always wants her next to him.He always says she is my soul mate.And looking at their interaction one would never doubt that true love indeed exist.
Even though that was the case.When you are as observant or should I say like to stick your nose where it doesn’t belong like mine….lol…you would see the signs.He would say something but the body language would say the opposite, Her body language would respond to His non – verbal communication. I felt this uneasiness sometimes between them.But then love comes with all kinds of emotions isn’t it?
So when, She said Dumi wants to kill me…i laughed out loud and said well…i know.i also want to kill Thabang. And She said seriously? I said yes! And She said why? And as idiotic as iam I started laughing and She said….There you again…laughing at unlaughable things.
Suddenly Her eyes welled tears.This is one of the strongest women I know.My friend would literally chase the lion in to its den with her stance hey! She can speak to it and it would listen to her quite, unwavering and calm voice whilst she tells it where to get off.
Hey..hey what’s going on I said.She told me.Dumi wants to kill me. And I said ok so which Sangoma did He visit.she said none….eish for an intelligent woman you claim to be sometimes you are ;Plain stupid! And I laughed out loud again.and she laughed too, we started laughing until our ribs hurt.but unlike we issually. Did after having a good laugh like talking of something else.This time it was different. …
She told me it started when she woke up oneday to find her loving Husband standing over here with a pillow on over her head.He was going to smother me… She told me but, i dreamed of my Mom saying wake up the smoke is going to choke you….and she said she kept saying to her Mom what smoke Ma…There is no fire mos….but She says Her mother was so persistent and like She literally shook Her to wake her up.and when she did, wake up there…was Her Husband.
What are you doing? She asked, killing you He said cooly. Hee bathong! Oh that’s the Me Now in reaction towards what she just said.And She said she never went back to sleep again.She woke up, went out of their bedroom to do her chores around the house…i would never understand how but she says She works better when everyone is asleep and none to disturb her…she could do a lot.
She says the second time it happened…She was taking a bath and what happened is She had her eyes closed and relaxing in a warm bath after a long day.and didn’t really hear Him coming inside the bathroom.He didn’t say anything but just started pushed Her head under the water and she started choking on the water.As she tried to scream…. He held her there.
She didn’t know it was him and kept praying for someone to walk in and as if God responded promptly to her prayer…Her daughter started calling her and came running to her bedroom and He released her and walked out.She said she was so shaken and coughing out the water. And asked Her daughter if she saw anyone going out of the bathroom and She said Daddy.
My mouth was hanging open by now and being the drama queen I some times am I said you are lying! And She said what for? I said I don’t know.and she said but iam done with Dumi.She said as She was packing Her staff to leave when Her Husband was on a two weeks training out of town…She found or rather discovered all the insurance documents packed neatly in an envelope which is strange as Her husband never packs anything anywhere as neatly… and bells started going off in her head.
She said you know my friend I was confused about leaving and not sure but after finding that…i knew staying would be my end.it Was as if God said ‘you wanted evidence to prove what you already know akere….So here it is.She said I have left him because I couldn’t sleep in peace thinking He would smother me in my sleep or push me again underwater, She said I couldn’t even take a bath….a long relaxing bath….because i thought of what would happen to me.He was too careful not to involve anyone.She said ‘I became so paranoid that I even thought He would poison me….didn’t even want to leave the kitchen whilst I was cooking and didn’t even want His tea or coffee. ..it was too risky for Me…She said.
Have you ever felt afraid…i mean paralysed by fear….that the one you love wants to kill you because you have become an obstacle? Like He feels you stand between Him and what He wants? like what He has to achieve? Which is a new girl?